Trying to Figure it all out...

This photography hobby thing becoming a business. I'm trying hard to figure it all out. I feel a tad overwhelmed sometimes. I know that my editing is not up to speed to where it should be, and I still have soooooo much to learn.

Hubs and I have been bickering about my photography for over a year now. I need him to understand that becoming a good photographer that people want and trust to take their pictures takes time. I think he is starting get "it", but is not very patient about it when money is the forefront of the conversation, and how to make it so that we can pay our bills. I do wish sometimes that he would recognize that my being "at home" over the past years as been valuable to our family and in raising our children. Sometimes I feel devalued as a mother, and that I do is important. Photography and the flexability it gives me to be with my family when needed is important to me. On the other hand, it is time for me to grab the saddle horn, and swing on up on the horse. I'm afraid. I didn't realize I have so many fears.

Hubs and I are also starting a Financial Freedom 13 week course tonight. I'm nervous and yet excited. IT is time for a change with our money. Times are tough, yes, but a change is needed. I know this, I pushed to join this class. It might backfire on me, Hubs says I don't like change. I am ready for it. We need it. Our family needs it. I am weary of the money fights, the worry that hangs over us like a cloud. It is going to be hard work, this I know and understand. I am going to have to become majorly more organized. I could most certainly use some change in that area, that's for sure! A sense of direction. I have one somewhat, but need guidance. A sense of driven purpose.